You're not together!!! Just try and move on. If you keep obsessing over it, you're only hurting yourself.
Anon you really don’t know anything about it. I told him in the first place that if we were going to be friends with benefits I wouldn’t be comfortable with him being sexual to anyone else in any way. He completely disregarded that, and whenever he’s feeling really sex deprived he suddenly loves me and cares and blah blah but then when he gets what he wants it’s gone. I’ve known him well for a long time so I know he really thinks those feelings are genuine but they’re not. He’s crossed the line. This past weekend he told me the same thing and that he would date me again, that he didn’t want anyone else to have me and didn’t want me to be sexual with anyone else and all that, was really sweet, told me that I’m the only girl he wants to do anything sexual with, now this. This is new for him, it’s not the person I’ve known. We had a mutual agreement that he broke several times, and most recently he’s pretty much shattered my trust. He’s always been honest and sincere so I never thought he would stoop this low but he has. It’s not just me being clingy or whatever, there’s context. I’m well aware that it’s just hurting me more but the only way for me to get through this is to face it head-on. That’s how I get through life. Please don’t make assumptions like that, it’s almost as though you’re disrespecting my intelligence.